just got home from werk,
m tired but cant sleep..
been thinking alot dis few daes,
evrything seems in a mess...
m comfused..
m depressed..
m so worned out..
hate this feeling..
fark dis feeling...

My bro getting married this May, my parents are going nuts about the preparation.. hahaha.. just kept quite, dont want to get involve, got my own problems to think about..

School is Fun! except for the studying part.. getting tougher and more complex, especially the web publishing.. trying my very best to keep up in class, cant afford to miss any lesson.. the dudes are getting more crappy and im not complaining.. especially that Rotiboy aka hilmi, crap alot.. we can laugh all they long, especially me, its my forte! Wakhahaha one thing, thought eating in school can save money, can go on a budget, but thanks to Rotiboy's humongous appetite, saving money is hardly achievable! he kept pestering me to eat with him, every two hours and not forgetting , bubble tea session is a must after school ritual! but strangely, Rotiboy has a stomach of an elphant but a body of a mouse! alien ar agaknyer!



some people are just so ignorant and insensitive.. simply annoying.. just because they have an exceptional command of language and charisma, they think dat they have the right to say anything they want.. go around criticising people's flaws like as if they are they perfect one.. i noe i'm not, nobody is.. so pls, the next time you open ure bloody mouth, just think before you speak, dont be sorry if one day you get into trouble just because of you mouth..show some respect as a human being mind you... no wonder people despise you.. aniwae, you were never in my good books.. fuck off.. get a life...


peace..

its Sunday morning and i woke up at 10.30 after a long and tiring Saturday.. yesterday my day started early in the morning, at 8 i have to wake up, get ready and make my way to Henderson CC for my flag day.. Kent injured his leg during his hockey game so it was left with ain, gaya and me. I hate it, why must they put the pick-up point at such an ULU place, at quite an unknown CC which even tha MRT officer guy doesnt know it existed! and worse, the place was also initially planned to be somewhere at Thomson there! Luckily they changed it.. Why cant they just put it at a known-to-all place?? Like during my secondary flag days, the booth were setup at Lot 1 shopping mall, so accessible and efficient..

We got our cans and we were allocated to a difft venues each by the volunteers, mine was at westmall, ain at IMM and hahaha gaya at Chinatown! But to hell with the volunteers, as soon as we went out of the CC, the cans was all suffed into my bags. Had breakfast at the market nearby and then make our way to Ngee Ann Poly open house... hahaha spent an hour or so in there.. walk here and ther, collect free stuffs, haha! goodie bag, free popcorn, free gatsby hair wax, free pens and then we took the free shuttle bus to clementi int to collect some donations! hehehe Clementi is a strategic place to collect donations, putting n a huge smile for everyone and soon enough, my can were half filled in no time!hahaha and i love the makciks, the always put in two dollars! we then went back to the CC to return the cans.. i was already started to feel tired.. took a bus to town to go to work, 4-12.. luckily there wasn't so much peolple..
reached home at 1, had a terrible headache.. wash up and went to bed in no time.. zzZZzzzZZzzzzZZZzzz

the kambing's are having a long cruise at sea..hehehe

today is quite a relaxing day.. class starts at 10.15 and finaly i can wake up late. school was fine..short day..HTML class and Human Resource only.. had a picnic in the com lab, we ate croissant with chicken fillings courtesy of hilmi whom brought it back from his workplace, Delifrance, still had the fillings in my fridge, hahaha..finish school before 3.. made my way back.. im like so free today cos im not working, no plans for the evening.. bey gotta work so im not able to meet her.. hahaha i seldom had the time to be free.. thought of sleeping when i got home but decided to join airi, hilmi and hamid going to town..luckily it was not mudane.. get to laugh alot ,especially with dat little brat,hilmi, we practically burst into laughter every now and then.. hahaha walk up and down, looking at tons of thing, alot of things that cought my eyes but didnt buy anything though.. went back early cos i just wanted too.. hahaha dats a first! reached home before ten! hahaha.. thankz guys for the awesome day!

forget the past and forsee the future

hey guys, been a while since i last updated.. i was busy with life that i hardly had any time to on my com.. hmmm... so dis is what i've been doing this past couple of weeks..

been either working or going out.. hardly spend time with my family at home.. school started recently and i was the only one who's excited about it.. hahaha.. dont't know why.. i guess going to school and being able to meet back my friends was the reason.. haha..

i'm feeling like a freeman now.. with no worries at stake.. having getting done and over with my O's was a great feeling, like a huge burden being lifted from my chest.. so now i'm able to go to school and just concentrate on my ite studies..pheew..thinking back about last year during my O's and ite exams period which each exam date wasn't that far apart, i just couldnt believe i pulled it through.. my brains was on the verge of explodeing for studying non-stop for exams after exams.. i admire my classmates whom doesnt have much to worry about.. haha but now i'm free!!! Like a bird escaping out of a cage! i dindt actually escape though, the door practically opens for me.. hehe.. i got a quite stable job already so no more money worries.. my relationship with bey is getting better and better everyday.. no family problems.. my musketeers buddy rocks.. and everything.. everything was going along fine..

i know its a little to late but... lions won!!! wwoooohhhoooo!! ole ole ole ole!! went to catch the match with my 4 buddies and bey, had a fun time.. watching the match while munching popcorns, taking pics after pics, cheering and jeering our lungs out(our throats actually, we kinda lost our voice after dat.. hahaha) been a long long time since we hang out together.. i'll upload the pic soon when i got the time.. i even took a video of the kallang wave and we making it.. the atmosphere over there was unbelievable! so lively! hahaha you guys are the best, we should hang out more often!

i really cherished those moments.. cos lately when i was able to sit down and think back, i sense something was not right.. everything was too right.. to good to be true.. theres sumting amiss and true enuf, i was right..things went wrong at home.. the spark started when i was going to qiqi's nadia's sis b'dae.. when i received a call..i just had to be strong.. i've been into even worse situations and i will definitely overcome this.. aniwae the bbq was ok to me, didnt really had great time cos i was trying my best to put on a smile.. it was no easy task..


bey, sorry if i didnt tell you, i just dont want to burden you, everythings fine really.. anyway, i know you got ure own problems.. get well soon dear...

epics of the unforgetten, will forever remain vivid in my mind.....
im lost in this world of uncertainities....

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If its wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side..
I'll give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining im looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
Im wishing on tonight
i'll give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight...

Hey ya, went to beach rd the other day and had Mee Kuah and Sup Kambing.. one of my all time favourites! its the best in Singapore! nice~
walk around the shops at the last floor.. nothing really catches my eyes... its still the same old things.. and oh yah, saw this really nice black shirt wif purple motifs, but it cost 33bucks! donoe wether to buy anot, 33 bucks for a tee from beach rd... worth it or not.... hmmmm.... and the shoes, the converse... are those imi or ori?? they looked like the real stuff..

worked two days straight at sheraton and this time the dining dept, the hotel cafe. it is better working there than in the banquet. less stress..and furthermore i can work during the weekdays, for at least 8 hours, unlike the banquet where u only work when theres function and that is only in the weekends.. and u can work for 5 hours only..

schools starting next week.. im not sure wether im prepared or not... i have to face my class advisor whom is really putting high hopes on me.. he expects me to do well... but in the recent exam, my gpa is only 3.13...
one A, one C and the rest are B's.. unfortunately the C is the module which my class advisor is teaching.. i think i disappoints him and also some of my other classmate.. im sure... im even more disappointed in myself.. sorry for letting you guys down...

one of my new year resolutions will be to do better in my ite studies, and i will...

Rain rain go away.....

Had a fun time today, went out with bey as today is her last day of her term break..the rain hasn't stop ever since it started... luckily i brought my super-big-tiger umbrella.

First stop, we went to her aunt's house at jurong west to return the tent we have borrowed. Ironically, the house is near my not so new house that i will be moving in soon. hahaha bey dont like jurong but what to do, jurong is my home since young, so... i lup JURONG!! Went to JP after dat. my cravings for Tom Yam Ban Mian was finally fulfilled.. wanted that for weeks... took a train to jurong to take bus no. 97 as we're heading to harbourfront.. wanted t otake the double deck but the single deck came... oh well... board the bus and half way through the journey i realised that i left the umbrella at the int.. haiya.... and due to my sillines, both bey and i got the stupid influenza virus... silly silly.... oh my dear umbrella... reach there the rain still havent stop and it never did until at night... went to Keppel harbour to Cannon showroom to claim bey's free gift.. lucky it was opened.. walk around harbour front mall for a while before taking the NEL.. stopped at Chinatown.. decided to explore our way there.. nothing interesting except for the human traffic.. then made our way to taka.. bought some foodies, chesseball, takoyaki- ham and cheese- our fvt!, pretzels wif the yummy caramel dip and the award winning durian pancake! yummy... went to cofeebean to rest our butts.. as bey was freezing, she had hot chocolate and i had my pure chocolate.. met ISMA working there, and as he made my frappe, he really put a generous amount of whipped cream, i loike! thnx dude.. and hahaha first time i heard my name being pronounced in an english slang.. ma'di. and that guy was a malay summore.. hahaha.. took a bus home den, met Alan and his gf, fund out that his job is a photographer.. cool sia.. den saw daus in 700, waved at him, he can hardly smile, pity him, must be tired working straight this days.. chill bro..

sorry dear for the umbrella *winks*

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

woke up at one today.. so freakin tired... my leg and back still aching...
yesterday work from 6-11 pm.. a wedding function... so unlucky of me, got a full table of 12 pax including 3 small kids summore... very fussy people... asked for this and that, i was running here and there to get their demands, i wasted alot of time to serve the food... and they ate quite slow too... aargh.... and due to that the captain said i was slow... to hell with the captain mann... brainless person... and one more thing, i thought sharing a side stand with a female senior will turn out alright and damn i was wrong... she's even more fussy! the dirty plates, cannot put it like that, must put it her way, must arrange nicely!! i was taught by the other guys differently, and i did it the way i was taught, was that wrong??!! and by the way, the dishes is going to be washed, not gonna be publicly displayed!! if she's pissed, i'm double pissed!! by the time i finished clearing my table, it was already 11.15pm...

the sprain on my leg wasn't getting any good.. hurried to change and rushed to meet bey at clarke quay before the countdown... luckily i was in time.. after i met her and we walked less than 10 steps, the clock strike 12, peolple started cheering, its the new year!! Glad i was there with her.. walked aimlessly and end up at fullerton, rested for a while.. so many people sia! bey actually wanted to watch the fireworks at esplanade but unfortunately it was cancelled..thought of going to Lau Pa Sat initially but i changed my mind and decided to treat her ice cream at Swensen instead.. i owe her aniwae..walked to the MRT station and the officials said theres no more train going to jurong via woodlands.. just ignored them and walked quickly.. they announced that the last train was leaving and so we had to run, hahaha. bey ran on her heels, funny funny.. just when we reached, the doors closes... we were late by 10 sec! luckily the kind driver open the door again and we manged to get in.. ppheeww! walk from somerset to swensen and boy was the street packed with armies of people armed with the spray cans! the Banglas especially! they're practically spraying everybody! they acted like a true hooligans! the queu at Swensen was long, waited for about 15 mins... met Shahidan, he worked there.. ex-cathay... hahaha.... had the Earthquake, fries and deep fried mushroom.. quite a fill.. then took a cab home... tired tired...zzZZzzzZZZzzzzZZzzzz